I’m tired of being out down, I’m tired of feeling like shit, I’m tired of crying…

I fucking miss you, its just crazy how much I do. I want to talk to you again but I’m scared and I still feel hurt. I just want things back to the way they were. Fuck I miss your random calls, visits, motivation, ways to keep me at a constant happy state. You were the only one who understood me and never judged me. I just want you back in my life. I miss having you around, I miss being around you all the time. You were my bestfriend and the person who kept me at ease. You taught me a lot that helped me shape myself up to become a better person. To appreciate all the little things that you had me going for. You’re one of the most amazing person I know. I’m grateful to have met someone like you. But I wish that things didn’t end the way they did by you pushing me away and leaving me with a pain that I can’t let go. I just want to know how you’re doing and to know that you’re doing great and what not. Spending time with just you on your birthday at the end of that day was the best. It felt like old times. Just chillin in your room while watching some tv and talking about weird things. I just miss you.

Had a wonderful day with my boyfriend. He knows how to make me smile and laugh everytime. (:

mndmwrites:

 I don’t expect us to always be happy. I expect you to try though, try when we disagree. I don’t expect you to think i’m perfect. I know i’m not perfect. I just want to be good enough. I know things aren’t easy, but it would be better with effort.